He has, hasn't he? Well, it's still true and leaves him feeling exposed in vulnerable in a way he doesn't abide by my most people. Jacob is not most people. It helps to know he can see him, especially when his thoughts and feelings get tangled and words become difficult.
Jacob says what Chris would have said before he can open his mouth and he doesn't interrupt. Something settles a little more in him, not entirely healed, but a little lighter to bare. There was a part of his mind that still caught him in the quiet of the kitchen some mornings when his thoughts were no where near the pit, and yet suddenly he would be back there, holding Jacob close like he could keep his soul from leaving him in those desperate moments and Chris would come back to himself shaking and eyes burning and needing to breathe. Hopefully talking about it would finally ease some of that.
Jacob threads their fingers together and Chris brings them up so he can kiss each finger and then the back of his hand he held. "Yes. It helps...you told me 'If you love someone, you never say goodbye to them.' So keep doing that for me, alright? I'm selfish...and I'd rather know you'll always come back to find me."
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Date: 2022-12-12 11:03 pm (UTC)Jacob says what Chris would have said before he can open his mouth and he doesn't interrupt. Something settles a little more in him, not entirely healed, but a little lighter to bare. There was a part of his mind that still caught him in the quiet of the kitchen some mornings when his thoughts were no where near the pit, and yet suddenly he would be back there, holding Jacob close like he could keep his soul from leaving him in those desperate moments and Chris would come back to himself shaking and eyes burning and needing to breathe. Hopefully talking about it would finally ease some of that.
Jacob threads their fingers together and Chris brings them up so he can kiss each finger and then the back of his hand he held. "Yes. It helps...you told me 'If you love someone, you never say goodbye to them.' So keep doing that for me, alright? I'm selfish...and I'd rather know you'll always come back to find me."